Man I need somewhere to talk about this sorry :(

So I like my boyfriend so so so so so o much. I love him (not like in the term of in love but love like I care so much) and I’ve never felt this way about a guy ;( lame sorry

But I’m just so insecure because his ex girlfriend was so so pretty…like I don’t think I’m disgusting but I’m nothing special. She’s literally so many guy’s dream. She’s a bitch THO lol

But still. They went on for two years so obviously there was so much stuff there and in the back of my mind I get jealous and it’s not like he ever talks about her but I go out of my way to look up stuff on Twitter from when they dated and it’s like I’m out to make myself sad ):

Should I break up with my boyfriend because I like him too much and I’m so scared of him breaking up with me lmao

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh time 2 rant

ok so i used 2 have this coworker that i had a lil crush on but he had a gf it was kinda like jim n pam except i was forever stuck as jim n pam and roy were gonna be together 4ever

but he’s very sweet. one of the most genuine, kindest people ever and he’s really cute and smart but anyways. on his last day of work i texted him afterwards like thank u for being a good person basically and how he indirectly made me strive to be a good person n not that many people did that for me andi  just wanted to let him know because i swore i would never encounter him again

boy went to college and him and his gf broke up and then huzzah he calls me randomly out of the blue askin if i want to go out to dinner with him bc he was in town n i was like hey sure why not. i didnt know him and his gf broke up though so i of course thought the intentions of this date was completely platonic

then, we went to dinner and all was fun and then he PAID and refused to allow me 2 pay n i was like [heavy breathing] this is fricken date

and then i subliminally brought up his gf that i thought was his gf and he was like oh yeah we broke up n i was like oh god this is a FUCKIN DATE

and then we went to the beach at night and we ended up holding hands n kissing blahblah

next week we went ice skating and made out some more blahblah

basically the week after  i was busy and this weekend i was busy as well. and when he tried 2 make plans w me and i tried, we found out our days just didn’t correlate well and we settled on we’ll try another time. but after that was settled he didn’t text me after that for two days and i got a lil ticked off because i was just under the impression that he is not exactly ‘using’ me but only really sees me as someone he wants to have makeout/other fun with ;/

and i was like lol fuck this boy but then he just texted me saying sorry bc he was busy and he didn’t end up driving down here this weekend and that he misses me and wants to call me tonight >:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

boys r so lame im done

I HATE BOYS SO SO SO OSO O OSO O MU H H

When you care about someone way more than they care about U :(

When all throughout middle n high school you were like yup I’m going 2 lose my vCard in high school to a rly awesome first boyfriend who I love it’s probably going 2 be soon

And I’m almost 18 and I’m a bigger virgin than ever lmao